dreaming

-i'm dreaming.

since xinyue requested for the video. :D it's kind of like the remix of airplanes. this time with a heavier bass and more badass rapping with courtesy from EMINEM. hope a consecutive video of pretty much the same song wouldnt bore you guys off. if you guys aint such a fan it's okayyy.

this song has pretty much been my 'anthem' for these few days? this is song of my phone alarm. and i actually made an effort to play this song through my earphones before i step out of my house and walk to school.

i guess it's because i find meaning behind it's lyrics. serves a great reminder. reminds me of my purpose.

you know. as much as a chatterbox i am, there are certain things i still keep to myself. lets call this 'thing' a 'shadow'. and this shadow wants to take a loudhailer and shout it out loud. because it clashes with my personality. the shadow is dying for attention. it doesn't want to stay a secret and unknown. it wants to be revealed like the rest of my traits.

but this shadow is afraid of being judged. because it's not conventional. and ultimately human beings judge. that's why it is locked deep down behind bars.

zzz. i dont mean to make you curious. i can so imagine after i tell you guys about it. you all will go: 'ohhh... :/' yea. it's nothing biggy. and i really dislike a reaction of indifference. sometimes it's not that you are indifferent. it is just that you dont know what to say. dont know what to react. so it's okay. but the feeling at the receiving end still suckzxz.

it's just that the shadow is trying so hard to burst out, tweeny bits of it leaked out. (in the form of this blog post.)

zzz. forget about it.

P.S. and no. i am not gay. whoever thought of that go and eat shit. LOL.

-& i'm failing.