flying off tml

i am flying off tomorrow to aussieland. at first i was excited for the army trip. okay i still am. but i just realised that i am leaving a lot behind. it is not that i am not coming back. however i hope things will go well during my absence.

a lot would be happening while i am away. a lot of gatherings. and i have not been exactly attended them while i am in sg. but a few rare gatherings are coming up and i really dont want to miss them! not to mention i really really want to go night safari and check out their uber cool halloween theme!! nooooooo.

and yes i am spending my birthday over there in some desert niceeeeee. honestly this doesnt bother me one bit :P

i hope all goes well back in camp. seriously. it was one hectic and dramatic night last night. its regretful that i would be away at such a critical moment. but i am sure my peeps will live up to the challenge. KUANG HAO this is the first time and most probably the last time i blog your name but I LEAVE THE HEAVY RESPONSIBILITY OF THE COMPANY IN YOUR HANDS LE. 我不在就要靠你了! stay strong for the people following you.

it is also regretful that i would not be there for the last few days of service for some of my best colleagues. all the best man. we have went through a lot together. (the same old cliche line of 'the sweat blood and tears shared' applies once again.)  you guys taught and guide me when i first came in. i will remember all those brief moments that we made a difference. too bad i can walk with you guys till your last day and we didnt have a proper farewell. we would surely meet less often after this but this is not the end. we will meet again before you know it! plannings for a december gathering party are in the works!

and my application for Melbourne University would be out soon. no idea if over at aussie would i have internet access. guess i would only know if my application went through when i come back.

did you ever had the feeling that you are leaving a lot of things behind? so many things that you think you should be doing or be involved but you just have to leave them behind and go? never thought i would grow so emotionally attached and felt responsible for so many things. ( no wait come to think of it, it was the same when i was vice president in media resource crew back in acjc huh. ) funny how initially i was so reluctant in assuming this role but now i feel so uneasy leaving for even a brief moment and letting someone take my place. as much i dont want to admit, it has become a role and responsibility that i take pride in. this is a family i learnt to love.

i would not be there to face the challenges to come with them. as much as i worry, i also know that it would all be alright eventually. because we are one N I N J A.

P.S. i will be back on 11 november to hold the fort once again.