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i have decided to make a serious entry. like FINALLY. hahah. all my entries so far have been done quite half heartedly. :X that explains the sharp decline in readers for this blog. :/ cant blame anyone though. who reads a half-abandoned blog? so i shall save this blog before it gets forgotten and becomes just another faded memory. :P

time sure flies its already 2009. and to make things worse. its already chinese new year! zomg. it feels like i practically missed the first 20 days of 2009 thanks to my thailand army trip. like i tell some of my friends. the world just goes on without us while we are stuck in the army. so we are missing out alot of stuff. like whats happening back here in singapore and stuff. so cant blame us that all we talk about is army. cut us some slack man. :P we eat sleep breathe army 24/7 we ourselves are bored to bits about it too. but sometimes we just need an opportunity to bitch about all the shit that is happening. (WAH WTF EMO.) okie i shall stop. heh. the point is i would gladly appreciate if any kind souls fill us in about whats happening now and then. like whats happening in the universities. about the recession in singapore now.(really?!) basically anything besides army generates great interest heh.


i supposedly have pretty many stories to tell. but since most of them are army related i shall not bore my seemingly already bored readers. :P

but alot of things have happened to keep me thinking. many of my army friends have broke up with their girlfriends because of.. army. that just sucks seriously. army life isnt exactly the most fun. it takes alot of willpower, determination and motivation to continue each day. to continue looking forward for tomorrow. and being an officer cadet sometimes just makes it worse. with our irregular bookouts (if we ever book out zz.) it is no wonder why your boyfriends aint there to accompany you most of the time. and when you complain that army changed your boyfriend and that he aint talking much nowadays.. its because what exactly do you want him to talk about? we only do that much stuff in army. we eat sleep shit. we fight. we shoot. we run like dogs. we scream for our dear lifes. thats pretty much. its that boring. and we know it. thats why most of the time the guys keep quiet. we sure have a narrow scope of topics to talk about. so we just dont really talk much.

then all the army guys after they ORD and go university they start running around like wolves preying on any random girl that is within their line of sight. after all they are deprived for 2 long years. then they start giving a shot in any girl they see. then knn assholes snatch my friends' girlfriends. if i ever see these bastards i am so gonna shoot them in the head. seriously piss me off. maybe it is not the girls' fault. after all they are not getting enough attention from their army boyfriends. then suddenly when they go university they recieved all the attention they can ever imagine from those horny bastards who just finished their national service. of course its a tough choice. whether to be faithful to your army boyfriend who is stuck in camp most of the time and do not have the time to entertain you or run off with some other random shit guy who is treating you like a goddess. sure you still love your boyfriend but he just aint there when you need him. this sweet boy you met in university just seems to be always there for you.

army is mentally stressful enough already. all those war-like scenarios. all those neverending missions. imagine after all these shit and finally returning back to bunk to only to recieve a message from your girlfriend that she has to leave you. and that she dont know what to say except sorry. wahlan eh. like some drama leh zz. what can the guy do? break out of camp to meet the girl? to try to solve the problem? call the girl who stubbornly decides on her own that this is the end?

he can only off the lights and sleep under the dimming moonlight. with tears rolling down from his eyes. helpless. wondering if it's his fault. wondering if this is all meant to be. wondering if things would have been different without army. all those years of memories now meant nothing. nothing at all.