i am sooo tiredddd. i felt like i was in the war zone for the past 2 weeks seriously. -.- freaking lack of sleep! there was this 3 day mission thingy which i slept for a total of 3 hours only!? and saturday i was cleaning weapons through the night till... sunday morning?! they sure know how to make full use of the 24 hours man omg. freaking tired and sleep and and and.. yawnz.

for the next few weeks i would be booking out on sundays. SUCKS MAN. sheeshh. its like when i am free no one else is free. and when everyone is free i am not. arghhh. totally feel like i am isolated from the rest of the world. the Olympics ended already?! so fast?! where have i been man. i am like missing out on so much stuff. shrugs.

then again i booked out in time to watch the Olympics basketball finals between USA and Spain. woohoooo! when was the last time i balled man. rawr. its either when i bookout i am too tired or no one is playing. ahhh. my hands are itchingggg. come on pass me the ball!

oh and i think my appetite expanded. o.o gosh and i thought i am a living blackhole. now i am eating more than i used to. siao liao later i become obese. >.< i am really eating ALOT. i am having second helpings when most of my friends have no appetite. i am even scaring myself now lol.

oh before i worry so much. let me go get another quick bite. tata. :P

hiya. getting lazy these days. especially with the upcoming 10days in the jungle tomorrow i just feel like stoning all i can now before i go out into the jungle and chiong. shrugs. you guys have NO idea. arghh. lol. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

when i come back i shall blog about my enriching experience to hellgate and back. :/ LOL. sheeshh where am i going seriously. o.O

hah nuff said. one a stupider note. LOVE GURU IS SUCHA DUMB MOVIE. like totally zz. total waste of money. even more stupid than zohan. zohan was lame. love guru is just plain stupid. most of the jokes are puns which is sooo hard to catch. its like some sort of literature lesson zz. so save the money and save yourself. dont watch the movie. lol. the only consolation was jessica alba. woohooo. lol *slaps myself* shes not THAT hot lah but shes the reason i didnt fell asleep in that shitass movie sheeshh.

oh money not enough2 was not bad though. hahah quite a funny movie. its also quite a sad movie. ( wth?! ) aiya you go watch then you will understand. omg i tear a tweeny little bit when the ah ma died. so sad. T-T

oh friday was rvnp rod. I DIDNT GET TO GO IN THE END WTH. was forced to watch Olympics opening. :/waited for singapore to march out. there was 205 countries and sg was the 188th. like omg?! it was such a torturous experience. everyone wanted to go home lol. wah lao so i missed the mini rvnp gathering and didnt get to see my cadets rod. shucks.

the bright side was we were allowed to go home before sg came out so we left at 1130pm. o.o?! and i reached home after midnight. T-T


oh wells i stumbled over a blog. jasmine's OLD blog. old as in realll old. i think even she forgot its mere existence. i copy and paste the entry here hor. i know you dont mind de lah. heh. the good old times:

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°rv[np]s304
our unbreakable bond
born a s304-ian, die a s304 ghost

yongsoon junjie chaolin xiangshan xiaoying alan mark jasmine germaine yanzhi haoting ruijie chinyue liping winni jin-e wanjing desiree kangyu ziwei pohswee shimeng jiahui chunwee zhaoxuan tiongyan paul weihuang huiping jasminelau chiehyin benjamin valerie jazreel jitwei

a box of 35 crayons.
All of different colours
But each with a unique touch.

We all have very interesting personalities.
Some clashed while others blend harmousiously.
But all together, we got along pretty well.
Like the way how colours (contrasting or not) could never ruin a painting

From sec1 swearing-in till Sec4 ROD last Friday night,
34 of you have taught me the real meaning of being SQUADMATES- the symbol of true friendship.
Having been through close to 4years of pumping, slacking, lagging, punishments and rebukes, doing dumb things together, laughter, peace and joy
rvnps304 was never the usual 'Officers&NCOs-loved-them-to-bits' kind of squad.

Young, untamed and rebels at heart,
We were a bunch of wild and funkkay kids who knew no law and order,
And havoc was perhaps our best cup of tea.
We entered RV unknowingly and played in the hands of fate.
75% of us chose different CCAs, yet fate brought us together as one.
Our paths crossed and together, we ventured the 3 stormy years ahead, hand in hand as one united squad.

sec1: Kaiwen,Cheegiap,Weeboon.
UOPA- Gold
They taught us well and the trainings marked the blossom of a new friendship.
They said, “We were sand, weak when divided but strong when packed.”

Sec 2: Xiaoyi, Stephanie, Zhibin, Yingqin
UOPA- Gold
<101>
It was a hell exciting year for all of us.
Xiao Yi instilled fear yet commanded the highest respect from all of us.
I would say the sec2 ICs were the beacons of light guiding us through the darkness.
Trainings were strenuous and tortuous but they kept us strong and bonded.
You guys made the tormenting training sessions seem so easy and fun
During that demanding sec2 life, we shared millions precious moments of sweat, blood, tears, joy and laughter.
This was perhaps the highest peak and highlight in my RVNP life.
I was happier then.

Sec3: Zhenbin, Grace, Yanshun, Heileong
UOPA- Silver
Our last year as cadets.
Life was dull and dragging,
But with added touching speeches on NCO-ship
ROD was a total flop.
We TRIED,
But Our efforts went down the drain.
That night was horrible and we wept like shit at the reservoir
Painful memories of that ROD have become ugly scars amidst all glitz and glamour of reminiscence.
We grew up overnight.

Sec4: NCO-ship
UOPA- Silver
it was a tiring and dreadful year.
We learnt to take on leadership roles to bring the unit to greater heights.
I became the sec3 PTI and a CC member.
It was tough at first,
But all was worth the extra mile when we enjoy the fruits of our labour (sometimes)

ROD Beautiful Illusions 2005
4 stormy years, gone in a flash.
How time flies.
It seemed as though overnight,
We have transformed to women and men.
That evening was magical,
34 (Chao Lin in Thai) of us gathered as one to celebrate our last official activity.
When the guys formed a circle and we girls formed another right inside
I wish,
let the circle never be broken.
Let us bond together again.

As the end of our graduating year draws closer,
Soon we will be going our separate paths to pursue our dreams,
I remember how we preserved on despite harsh criticism,
How we braved all hardships and emerged as the victor at the end of the day,
How we encouraged one another to endure the hardcore Pts,
How we cursed fiercely and at times cracked our usual lame jokes during each changing parade,
How we jest playfully with one another in our free time,
How we created nicknames for everyone in the squad,
How we amuse ourselves with our own original s304 acting scripts,
Everything.
I remember everything.
And words are beyond description to explain my stirring emotions.
All I can manage is, Thank You.
Thank You for these 4 beautiful and memorable years.
Thank You for painting colours into my dull and mundane life.
Thank You for turning me to who I am today.

If only time could come to a standstill,
I would want to spend all my Tuesdays and Fridays with all of you.
But deep in my heart, I know…
I have already captured all the happiest, funniest, saddest… etc moments spent these 4 years.
Memories that last a lifetime to remind me of a precious squad that I belonged to,
And to remember each and every one of you.

And I know even to my very last breath, these memories will stay with me forever,
Like what yin said, “May all of us become stars when we die, all 35 of us.
35 stars, the brightest stars across the universe,
linked by an invisible bond.
That will be us u see...”
Our legacy lives on forever…
Till death do us apart.


I cried on ROD night,
And became the 2nd ‘loser’ of the day.
Yupp, I broke my pact (with myself) too.
Was rather determined not to tear this year,
But life’s so unpredictable.
Opps, I did it again.
But it wasn’t as bad as last year though.
This time round, there were a few drops of tears but yupp, that was all.
But I literally broke down only upon hearing ps speech.
Yeah, I’m a loser.
But it’s all right,
I’m not shy to express my affection for the squad so openly.
I love s304,
Really, <3 them to bits.

It never occurred to me that one day we will go our separate ways,
And perhaps may never see one another again.
All of a sudden, I felt lost.
10 years later, will we meet as strangers or as the same old us?
Can we still laugh and chat like now?
It’s kinda scary if you think about it.
But for now, I wanna cherish this moment, where we are still the same rvnps304.

I adore rainbows like bees attracted to flowers.
If I could name all the colours in the world, I‘ll pick 35 special ones and name them after each one for you.
Then I’ll match them up to form a beautiful 35-colour rainbow.

You guys have indeed painted a very lovely rainbow in my heart,
a 35- colour rainbow that can never be replacedd.

parting marks not the final goodbye, but the countdown to our next reunion.

<3 best of luck to all of you,
till then...
when our paths cross again (:


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goshness. 3years later hows the situation now? many of us went our separate ways which have yet to cross paths again. a handful of us still keeping in touch fortunately. but sigh how time flies and how i miss the good old days. hmm only the handful who still comes here will read this entry i guess.


i am still proud to be part of rvnps304. wondering how all 34 of you are today.

OMG. MY COMPUTER SPOIL. AGAIN?!?! you gotta be kidding me man. wthhhh. so i am using my other computer now. arghh. this sucks. i feel like sulking and crying like a baby. T-T

dear dear dearest computer why why tell me why!

oh the animal farm play of rv eldds turned out fine! no wait let me correct myself its pretty awesome lol. i am totally impressed! so totally un-rv-like can. the rv i know is so cheena ahahaha.


oh saw the students. WAHLAO no one recognised me T-T maybe its because my cap is covering half my face heh. and maybe because i looked so dao since i was kind of tired just booked out. but still. GOSHNESS :/ i feel so forgotten rahhh.


ahah just typed finish 2 longgg emails. so tired. got off till tomorrow afternoon. guess for the next few weekends i would be stuck in camp! nooooooooooooo.

how would my national day this year be still remain a mystery.


PLEASE LET ME BOOK OUT.

and if someone up there really likes me.. please let me book out 8 august before 12pm!! ahhhh. seems so impossible. zz and i am not being greedy kae i so want to go back rvnp see my cadets rod! oh come on just this once!

shrugs.

alrights i am feeling sleepy.. so need to sleep.
and laoda: i am blog like a NS man? OH NOOOO. ITS CANT BEEEEEE. arghhh. dieeee.


ahaha enough of the nonsense. nights(:

WTH. MY TAGBOARD IS DISFIGURED. freakinggggggggg #@$!$@#$!@@#!. i shall congratulate the masterminds: franklin maurice jinsheng hanming. go and die understand. zz.

WTH. my draft for debbie's farewell is gone gone gone! :/ kk retype...

we were from the same class 1E! i still remember the first day of school when i was greeted by the disgusting 4 yellow walls of the classroom. i was like what kind of classroom is yellow?! bright bright yellow. sheesh. but as time goes by the yellow yellow dirty fellow walls start to bring a certain warmth to the class.

still remember the afternoons spent copying endless chinese corrections for liuyang which never seem to end. half the class stayed back after school and just keep copying the chinese characters over and over again. all of us cursing/grumbling/complaining. and of course some of us trying to find the most efficient and fastest way to do the corrections. we tried holding 2 or even 3 pens at the same time and some of us tried copy with BOTH of our hands at the same time ahah. those were the young and innocent days. not to forget that the hours spent were also spent talking cock. :D

oh and the class chinese new year play? and a few other dance performances. also forgot what were all those performances for already. but just remember that our class stayed back after school for quite a few days having rehearsals.

then also dont know why debbie became so close with rvnp. hahah. guess because winni from rvnp also. and quite alot of rvnp peeps from 1E. i remember there was one chinese essay about 'my cca' and debbie wrote her cca as rvnp even though shes from dance. ahahh she heard so much of rvnp from all of us that she knows almost everything.

i guess its kind of cool that there is still 2E outings after sooo longgg. its kind of amazing how we still keep in touch. still remember sending yixin off. i think that was my first time sending people off. first time i cried infront of so many people too. but i think no one realised because i quickly backed away into the background. then liyuan left too. my dear TKK buddy who endured with me for 2 long years and we finally won a MERIT award. that idiot left to new zealand without a sound. I STILL CANT BELIEVE IT.

over the years all the minor details forget already luh. hahah but i still remember the thailand trip! hahah. dam fun i swearrr. walking around carefree and just looking around. NOT TO FORGET THAT WE CELEBRATED YOUR BIRTHDAY AT THAILAND. to think you actually thought we would forget sheeshh. to think we went through all the trouble lohhhh :/ oh and jianming burnt this finger trying to light the birthday cake. NOOB.


oh all the videos and photos still with you leh. -.- wth then you zhao till aussie.

the times we just stand in a circle and talk cock for hours.

the times we sat in a circle eating back at je.

that time we go support aristal and ruijie lost his phone. LOL.

and alot more times that we really stand in a circle and waste time.

times we make fun of nigel. ahahah.

times spent at poyan's house. SHIT HER FISH DIED. lol.

havent try ironed bread lehh lol.

oh not to forget the period when you get all emo ahahaha.

hmm. like missed out quite alot of stuff huh. but its a retyped entry so i forgot alot stuff not my fault la huh. but phew finally finished! yupp dont forget. singapore it will always be your home! :D

eh to the REAL alicia: eh? i taught you before? ahah paiseh i forgot already what class were you from?

to the fake alicia: go and die understand.