FINALLY i packed my room.
the jungle of paper and books.
the heap of rubbish.
the huge mess.
is all gone :D
okie at least thats what i planning to see. i havent really finish packing. its not an easy task okie. rome is not built in one day.

at least now i can see my table top.

oh wells. i just wanted to share my joy of my great accomplishment.
the accomplishment of packing my room. which i am going to succeed in the near future. no harm celebrating now.


i shall not give up.


over my dead body.


woots! i love the way i make a crappy entry sound so serious. XP


so in the end... my room still not packed finish and i am tireddddd.

i have a dream.

a dream that one day rooms that pack themselves exist.



lolol this is quite fun. thank you for wasting your time. (:
tata!

yo whatsup!

hmm. thursday i went back ac to help sell bubbletea. lol quite fun larh. woots.

okie saturday xinyue went to australia le. but like her squadmates said. she will be coming back. lol!
take care girl (: i know you will see this. but not soon lol somehow u dont have internet there yet. >_<

went to send her off with chunwee and junjie. diao those 2 clowns. i met with chunwee first. then we supposed to meet jj at clementi mrt. when we were at je mrt we msged him. when we reached clementi mrt he didnt board the train. we were like eh!?!? where he. we called his house. FREAK he still at home. his hp cant call cant msg. so the moment he goes out he is virtually uncontactable.

when we reach airport. we were at terminal 3. need take skytrain to terminal 1. but zz we just missed the skytrain! then the skytrain to terminal 2 came. they 2 say the train to T1 will take very long to come. those 2 idiots insisted in boarding the train to T2. then go terminal 2 and take another skytrain to terminal 1. so we ran into the train before the door closed. or at least they did. i couldnt get on board in time. then they were laughing laughing. after that i called them. the train to T1 coming in 1 minute. LOL. idiots.

but it was dam fun hanging out with those 2 idiots. we somehow got this chemistry lol. can play alot stupid jokes. we like not stop laughing.

yesterday balled. woots! that explains my happy mood. my whole body aching. that also explains my happy mood. muahahaha. means i played hard. got to know a few new friends from the bbal court. thats quite cool.


oh yarh yesterday had 3 point shoot out competition. the competition starts at 5pm. so i took an afternoon nap. i woke up ask my mum what time is it. she said 5 pm. OMG. then i raced down to the bbal court lol. den i realised i got a more active role. at first i thought i go there be ball picker. zzz. but i got to participate heh!


oh yea i have been one piece. its dam nice. its dam funny. and the best part is. no one dies in the anime! :D and alot people say i look and act like the main character LUFFY. lol okie lah not alot people. a few. lol wth luffy is a complete simple minded idiot who everyday happy go lucky but cares alot about his friends. hahaha sounds like me alrights. wheee! but its dam cool! really dam nice hahahahah.


oh i am feeling more like myself lately. thats good! wahahahaha. thats about it.
take care peeps!

yo! siannnnn.

people are leaving.
people left.
for ns.
for the next stage of their lives.
for a few weeks.
for a few years.
forever?

why do strangers meet, only to be separated in the future? when strangers meet, time is needed for them to understand each other. by the time strangers become friends, its already time for them to separate.


thats why some people never wanted to grow up so that they can stick to the same friends. but fate is larger than the individual. fate made people meet and fate makes people separate.


but people are social beings. we are defined by the bonds we make with others. distance will surely weaken the bond. but its our responsibility to hold on to the bond with our dear life and never let go. you always have a place in your friends heart. no distance far enough or time long enough can replace that place that belongs only to you. thats the special thing about friendship. you can forget about a friend. keep him/her in the fridge frozen and move on with your life. many years down the road when you remember of that friend again you can just take that friend out of the fridge and thaw him/her. (u know like food.) of course the friend will be pissed but he/she will never blame you and that friend will be good as new after sometime.

ok larh this is not my original analogy. got it from a song.


but yea thats the special thing about friendship. its not something that you can forget and throw away. its always kept inside you. the memories the feelings.


i was looking at some blogs. then i saw the footprints of people that they left behind in other people's life. well... lost for words. hmmm. let me try again.


okie wait let me stop my music player first i cant think with it playing in the background.

how do you judge a person's success? his fortunes? his status? or his relations with other people. the footprints he left behind. the way he affected other people's lives. the way that he will be remembered.

oh i think i say before. i hate saying goodbyes. it takes a lot of courage. to leave everything behind and move forward. the people that you know. people that you care. friends that care.
people who made you who you are today. people who left footprints in your life. and people whose lives you have left footprints in.


hmmm. i have witnessed alot of farewells. but somehow i still cant write a good article about it. zzz. sian. these are just words stringed together. these are not feelings. lol failed attempt to sound philosophical.


all i have to say is. move forward in life bravely and have no regrets. its part of growing up. dont worry about the bonds left behind. because the bonds are kept with you as you remember them forever.




as the footprints left behind in the sand are blown away by the wind.
memories continue to stay unforgotten and endure the harsh ordeal of time.

hmm.. there are some people in life whose simple gestures can really make your day or crush your heart.



eh i am kind of lost ah. so what now? zzz.


okie this is a random entry a proper one will most likely come soon.


maybe i just be happy go lucky as always and act like i dont care.
maybe that way it will hurt less.


OH SHIT. superrrrrrrrrrrrr emo larh crap.
okie this entry was not posted by chow haoting.
his evil twin did.



mada mada dane.

woohoo finally updating! it has been a busy busy week for the unemployed. argghh. i am just happy that today is a rot-at-home day.


start of the week was pretty much... forgotten. i forgot what i did.
okie fast forward to wednesday night. i finished the book marley and me! i bought the book like more than a month ago.
but i was either too lazy or too busy to read. so i read real real slowly.
did i tell u guys about the book before? its about the author and his doggg called marley.
that day i was going to sleep leaving 2 chapters left of the book. i knew marley was going to die. then crap i couldnt sleep. i need to finish the book that night lol. so i got up from bed and finished the last few chapters.
wah my eyes teared up for a moment when the dog died. like for 4 seconds. i didnt feel sad enough to cry because i read the book too slowly to remember much details. lol its really dam touching can. recommend the book to all. if you want to read can borrow from me. but i dont know if non dog lovers will like the book though. =/

thursday was going to be a busy day with:
birthday surprise. bubbletea selling. dinner with pals. farewell party.
i woke up late dammit. it was noel's birthday. so it was kind of canceled. but i insisted in the surprise so only me and dicky went since cherilyn had work.
after that went ac to sell bubbletea. some fund raising thing. but i went there late so bubbletea was sort of sold out already. in the end i was only selling cheese hotdogs lol.
then rushed to bp plaza meet up with mark and gang. lol. funny peeps.
stupid jieli pangseh. zzz.
they went my house after dinner. after that i walked over to rachel's farewell party with gang.
me and gang walked for like 40 min. >_< it was supposed to be near. but we acted smart and tried a short cut. okie i acted smart.
i popped by for 10 min saying hi and then bye to everyone. gang dont know most of the people there he just accompanied me there. it was kind of dark and i didnt want to walk alone what zzz.
so scary can. erm yarh so i left. and the crap part is i didnt even say hi to rachel. they were kind of singing to her so she was in the middle of a circle. i shy so didnt want to attract attention.
went to treat gang teh ping then poof dozed off on my bed. knocked out tired.

friday went back to ac again. they had worship under the stars. i went back to help as mrc.
alot crap happened. quarreled with the new mrc teacher for dam long after the event. stand till tired. quarrel so long till halfway i forgot what were we suppose to quarrel about.
pack up finish 1am. then stayed overnight in school.
because next day need reach airport at 630am to send rachel off.
we took first train there. me and reuben.
sigh. the farewell was initially fine. then everyone started crying. zzz. i am never good with goodbyes. canada is such a far far place. ):

rach was the public relations head of council. me and reuben mrc what. so we first met to discuss about movie under the stars a council initiative. that was during j1. okie i shall stop here and not getting all emo lol. fine lah not very close with her but i figured migrating to canada is a very big thing. so should really send her off. hey man thats what friends are for.

bye rach(: lol okie not like she will see this.


then after that went home sleep. crap tired.
didnt go for noel bday celebration. zzz. they were saying why i go send rachel off instead of going for noel bday. bday every year also got what. and who knows when can see rachel again.

the initial plan was send rachel off go noel bday then xinyue's farewell party.
but i changed noel bday to sleep lol.
eh wah lao zzz. dont like that lah. can meet up another time what.

met up with junjie and chunwee. then go the party le.
quite okie lah.
half the time me and jj making fun of chunwee.
the worse part was after vivo dinner.
everyone was like. STONING. wth.
so we 3 tried to make them not so stone. wth.
in the end is we zi high lol.
we say jokes then we ourselves laugh. everyone else was like... offline. lol. or brb.
they just continued stoning to our failed attempts lol.
zzz. then i was dam tired lol. went home poof dozed off on my bed.

OH shirui house got LABRADOR. lol marley is a labrador too. dam cool lah lol.

yesterday celebrated huiping bday. diao she whole time stomachache so was quite moody lol.
we bought chocolate cake in the end most of it is i eat. WOOTS :D
lol we just talk crap as usual.


lol. meeting with old friends is just so fun.
okie this is a super compressed entry. hopefully can update soon lol.
tata~~


who's debbie LOL

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is t he only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

-George Carlin, American comedian


lol yea i didnt just wrote that inspirational article up there.
i just wanted to share it.

its okie team we still have the best record in the NBA.
this year is our year.

feelings are part of the human soul.
you feel happy, sad, angry, or even feel hungry.
yupp hunger is a common emotion for me.
lolol.

but there is one feeling i hate.
dislike.
i hate feeling helpless.
the feeling of being powerless.
this feeling is uncommon but i hate it when i feel it.
the feeling of unable to do anything about the situation.

this feeling is familiar.
like during mrc.
there was an event.
honors night. we were doing the event.
we were taking turns to have our dinner breaks.
i was having mine.
when i returned.
i realised something cocked up while i was away.
when i returned i heard the teachers talking about it.
the teacher asked me what happened.
my mrc teacher in charge explained that i was having my dinner break.
but i felt so helpless.
why wasnt i there when the problem happened.
i know its not my fault.
but. i thought i could have done something.
anything.
the feeling of helplessness that i wasnt present to savior the situation.

a quote sherman left with me when he handed over was 'shit happens'.
things always cock up. so we must always be prepared to solve the problem.
but why wasnt i there.
when i look into the teacher's eye.
i hate that feeling of helplessness.
i returned too late from dinner.


my teacher told me my presence wouldnt change anything.
because my crew is there when the problem occurred.
its not as if no one was there.
and we were taking turns for dinner.
just so happened it was my turn.


but still.
hate that feeling of helplessness.
i could have done my part.
as a member of mrc and as the vp.
wth why i suddenly talk about old times.

i hate the feeling of helplessness.
like lets say someone is in trouble but i am in no position to lend a helping hand.

i see animals in pain.
thats why i was determined to be vet.
to save all the animals out there.
because i felt that animals are more worth saving then humans.
because humans are slowly killing our earth.
humans fight among each other.
humans kill each other.
humans lie and cheat each other.
what a childish thought.

then i saw people in pain.
people that i dont know.
people that i want to help.
thats why i suddenly had the urge to take medicine course.
then i remembered my a levels.
honestly speaking.
i know what my results are going to be like already.
i took the exam myself dammit.
and the results will not be good enough to entitle me to a medicine course in local universities.
its not my inadequacy it was my laziness.
and i really regret.
if not for the fact that i cant take medicine course with my results.
i am fine with it.

so i started to do abit of research.
i decided to take SAT test.
so that i can go overseas for medicine courses.
i needed a excellent grade to entitle for overseas scholarship.
didnt sound impossible for me though.
but crap the test is in jan 26 and i aint preprared.
so i didnt register.
the next test is in may.
and i got NS.
crap.
well. wait after i come out.
2 yrs later.

shit i sound like a poseur. act noble.
not be a doctor for myself.
but be a doctor to save other people.
yeap. i am sure people will believe that.

thats the sad part about our world that needs healing.
people thinks that money makes the world go round.
they dont believe in love anymore.
every act of kindness must have an ulterior motive.

but really. medicine was the last course i wanted to take.
all my relatives asked me to take medicine.
because they know biology is my passion.
but i have settled on veterinarian course for a long time.
i was so convinced animals that we share the planet with are more worth saving.
after all. if some human beings are killing them.
some other human beings must save them.
it was recently then i started to consider taking medicine course.
thats if i am allowed to take the course with my shitty grades.
well. dont give me those talks about how my a levels results will be good and not to worry.
like i said. i took the exam myself. i knew what i wrote.
well. that wouldnt stop me from working towards my goal.
had never. has never. will never.

a few of my pals.
told me that i am a boy with big dreams.
lol.
i agree.
whats wrong with that?
the foundations of greatness are dreams.



就算地再大 天再高
人有了梦想就不再渺小

okie this was supposed to be a sequel entry but i forgot what i wanted to blog about.
all i remember was.


i believe.
sijia's new year message say that phrase should be the motto of 2008.



LOL.

shit that was random.
crap what did i want to blog about again?

ooHH..
that day when i crashed ac.
we played frisbee!
there is one point.
the frisbee was about to touch the ground.
i DIVED for it.
it was like 5 cm off the ground.
then i leaped and grabbed the frisbee with my right hand.
i was literally parallel to the ground.
just barely touching the surface.
can imagine not!
close your eyes and try again lah.
then my specs fell off.

that moment time FREEZED.
for like 0.00000001 sec.
i was thinking.
haoting whatever you do dont step on your specs.

then i rolled over. evading my specs. with the frisbee in my hand.
can imagine the matrix effect?
MAN that was tiring.

now from the biological stand point of view.
the time freezing phenomenon is due to adrenaline that is being pumped into your blood.
or rather my blood.
okie maybe i am just talking crap.

oh well at least that entertained you guys abit.
rolling off!

hello!
happy new year pull your ear!
i started the new year with
zhanwen ndric weiyi and weihong.
lol. we went esplanade to watch FIREWORKS.
:D
pretty pretty pretty.

fireworks are pretty but short lived.
but after when the fireworks die out.
we dont ponder over why it died out.
we rejoice over the moment that the fireworks took our breath away.
lol okie i trying to be philosophical again.
heh.


after that went yanlu house.
got 2e countdown party.
but i reached at 3am.
half the people left. where got countdown party people leave before the countdown de.
zzzz!
watched taiwan countdown concert on MTV.
watched mayday performance. what a way to start the year woots!
then morning go home bath.
DREADED BUS FARE.
board the bus.
beep.
single beep.
shit. i am a new adult.

rushed home bath then went and meet reuben and victor for lunch.
then we talk cock.
then they came over to my place and zigui came.
wah i got great memory.

next few days CRASHED AC.
woots.
feels like coming back home.
it was dam fun.
the seniors formed our own OG.
with our OWN flag.
lolol. we even made our OWN water bombs.
so we go around scaring the j1s.

and i got sun burnt.
my face is like.. peeling.
wahahahahah.
"fun in the sun.
and it just began."
was that how the high school musical 2 song goes?
heh.


then saturday was the interjc pageant.
my gawd.
freaking crowded.
okie that whole chapter can skip.


lol.
today had dinner with some peeps.
ndric weiyi almo gang zhanwen brandon yuanjie and nigel came for awhile.
the last supper.
most of them going to ns.
like. real soon.
like.
tomorrow.
sigh how time flies.
take care man brothers.


oh yarh i watched EVAN ALMIGHTY.
its a nice movie about the noah's ark.
like a modern day version.
it was hilarious.
the thing i like about movies.
is that their storyline usually has a meaning.
and this movie's meaning is to change the world.
with an
Act of
Random
Kindness
at a time. ARK.

that explains my new year message doesnt it.
to stop the hatred and spread the love!
our earth is sick.
and it needs healing.
to stop all the feuds, all the wars and all the deaths.
and we all can change it together.
with one act of random kindness at a time.
i believe we can change the world.
no matter how helpless and how small one individual is.
never underestimate how much your kindness meant to other people.

oh by the way.
remember to vote for me as the next us. president!
OBAMA AND CLINTON STEP ASIDE.

HAPPY NEW YEAR.
ok i got lots to blog but i am just plain lazy.
but there is a quote i must show u guys.


There are painters who transform the sun to a yellow spot, but there are others who with the help of their art and their intelligence, transform a yellow spot into the sun.
- Pablo Picasso


okie got to run.
cyaos