whats with all the emo posts people. =/

anyway.
i swear i just dieds in the toilet.
diedS.
more than once.
stupid diarrhea.
i think i went to the toilet like 6 times a day.
i think i even lost a kg or two. O.-
seriously. argh.
it cant be food poisoning.
i didnt ate much on monday.

more like i was starving.
i didnt eat breakfast and my first break was dam late. =/
then i felt dam weak.
i told noel i am quite hungry.
he gave me this serious look and said with a serious tone.
"haoting, can you tell me something new about yourself."
i was like.
I AM REALLY HUNGRY. argh.

these 2 days i spent much time in bed and in the toilet.
even had a fever. =/
teeerrrriiibbbblleeee.
feel so feeble.
need fffooooooddd...
well my fever is gone now.
but i can soooo feel my next toilet wave coming.
this is disgusting. >_<

oh gosh.
i am graduating next Wednesday.
can you believe it?
time flies man!
A LEVELS COMING.
SHIT.


i am graduating.):
oh no!

siaaannnn.
there goes school holidays.
youth days.
and...
hmm..
cheap canteen good food.
i will miss the yong tou fu
which i ate faithfully everyday.):

lol.
shit no emo posts!


tomorrow honours night!
outstanding service award anyone?


kk.
gtg!
iMug.

bye bye world.
and let the mugging begin!

friday got back results.
hmm.

i failed math BOOHOO.
ARGH.
time to stop staring at questions and actually start doing them.
so not a big problem.

i failed gp. >_<
what the.
how could i fail compre.
dammit.

chem was. okie larh.
D.
disappointing but still.
need to work harder.
studied the most for chem.
not enough.
GOGOGOGO.

econs.
1 more mark to B.
WOAH.
surprise surprise.
i thought econs is a fail or pass subject.
didnt expec to do so well.


heh.
i left the best for the last.
BIOLOGY.
hmm.
think i am second in class.
BUAHAHAHAHAH.
emphasize on "think"
my guess is there is someone whose marks is higher than me.
but i am not sure.
so technically.
i dont know of anyone who won me yet.
HEH.
BUT. gary same marks as me.
lol. not bad ah gary.
you caught up with me.
HEH.


my bio paper quite nice to see.
teacher got put smiley faces.
then she put "max" too.
means like the question maximum 3 marks.
1 point 1 mark.
but i wrote more than 3 points.
so she can only give me 3 marks.
heh.
*grins*

okie i better stop.
later people think i cocky.
aiya. in life must concentrate more on things that make you smile what.
heh.

k la.
really must start mugging.
44 more days to A levels.
>_< oh man.


i am cool with my results.
i dont "worry".
when i look at my results i more of start to think of solutions.
to save my grades.


being carefree is not being ignorant.
its about taking things the way it is and do what you can.
and not ponder over factors that are not within our control.
like our grades for prelims are fixed.
our grades for A levels remain a variable factor.
its the only factor we can determine now.

sigh.
i say so much because.
some of my classmates took the prelim results harshly.
sigh.
when i see them like that i also quite sad.
also cant cheer them up need give them some breathing space.
sian sian!


hmm. the universe so big.
there are so many things we cant change.
if we just accept the fact.
and live to our fullest with what we can.
we will be happier wouldnt we.
of course larh.
cannot just plainly accept.
somethings are worth fighting and living for.
the past is fixed. and the future is uncertain.
but the present is right here.
so the only thing we can change is the present.
no point worrying about the future.


a wise man once said
"just let the river flow"


hmm.
okie i better try to do some work.
cya.
oh yar the wise man is me.
XP

guess what turns out.
the teacher have not even check my hair at the back.
she say my fringe too long.
@#$^%&#%^$@#
all the trouble for nothing.
argh.

then i went home.
and decided to cut my hair myself.
tough job.
looking into the mirror.
hard to estimate the distance.
if you get what i mean.
quite fun.
you guys should try it sometime.
HEH.


after that.
wah.
cutting hair is like an art.
makes you look at life with different perspective.
next time you will see my name.
CHOW HAO TING.
local leading hair stylist.
muahahahahahahaha.


-----------------------------
back reality.
OH MY GOODNESS.
I TOTALLY SCREWED MY HAIR UP.
WHAT THE HECK WAS I THINKING.
WORSE PART IS I GOT NO ONE TO BLAME.
SINCE I CUT MY HAIR MYSELF.

ARGHHH....
now is a good time to shoot me.
somewhere between my eyes would be nice.

now i look like some..
some geek or something.

"wah you use a bowl to cut your hair ah"
i think i heard that a dozen times today arghh!!!

i think i will just go school tomorrow with a paper bag over my head.

AHHHHHHHH....
okie this is just a nightmare.
after i wake up everything will be back to normal.
*snaps fingers*
.........
NO................


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on a lighter note:
Each player of this game starts off with TEN weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own TEN weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.At the end you must choose SIX people to be tagged and list their names. NO TAG BACKS. ;D haha


=/
here goes.
1) i was 158cm in sec2 now i am 185cm (4 years time span)
2) my first tooth fell off when i was eating an apple. the tooth got stuck in the apple and i bled like mad. okie i am not sure if its my first tooth. but its the only tooth i remember falling off. heh.
3) i didnt read enid bliton ( is that how u spell it ) as a kid. i read encyclopedia meant for kids. told you i am smart.
3) i used to catch creatures and bring them home and rear them as pets. e.g. spiders, grasshoppers, CRABS etc ( cant remember other animals already. )
4) i cried when watching a winnie the pooh movie once. one of the characters was stuck under fallen trees and the little kangeroo was trying so hard in vain to save him. not my fault its such a sad scene. ):
5) my family ( papa, mama, sis, me ) slept together in the master room since i was young till i was... i dont know primary 5? talk about cozy. shheesshh. but i was always sleeping on the floor.
6) i cant read a bike. GO AHEAD AND LAUGH. SO WHAT?
7) i can roller skate. but now i cant find skates big enough for my giant feet. =/
8) my feet size is 13 and sometimes 12. dont know leh maybe varies according to atmospheric temperature.
9) i am cute XP oh wait thats not a little known fact. thats a WIDELY known fact.
9.1) i am dam scared of lizards. okie not that scared. but when they sneak up on me. ARGH. ok i admit. dam scared.
10) erhh....................
i am actually a martian hidden in human civilisation for 1000 years. my purpose of visit is to observe homo sapien (human beings) behaviour. i realised humans are selfish annoying and arrogant beings. i am now planning the destruction of all mankind. no wait. mankind will eventually kill one another in their meaningless wars.

this is the TRUTH. but i posted it here since i know ignorant home sapiens will all think that i am joking. so none will doubt my identity as the subject 'haoting'

foolish creatures.


erh not going to tag anyone i suppose.
later my friends all think i dam childish. X:
okie its dam late.
i got to go sleep.
so that my hair got time to grow.
:D grow grow grow!

sigh...
so sad.. ):
why must like that.
sobs..
i waited so long for this.
now its all over..

WHY.
WHY.
WHY MUST THIS HAPPEN TO ME!!


my hair finally so nice and long and layered.
now must cut all because of honours night. ):
(GOTCHA L0L)

because hair too long cant take award.
argh.
i qualified for outstanding service award.
but like everyone also taking the award.
>_< dudiao.


sian lah.
i meant the back of my head.
hair there too long.
but i like it like that.
bye bye my beloved hair...

then because the rest of my hair short enough.
then i dont want waste money pay 10 bucks to cut just the back of my head.
so i asked my sis to cut for me.
my gosh.

like passing the mission of saving the world to a monkey.
my sis holding a scissors like a child holding a loaded gun.
-.-
i was so scared she do something finally.

i spent quite sometime teaching her how to cut.
according to my excellent observations in hair salons.
i figured people that are particular with their hair are excellent teachers to hairdresser wannabes.
hehh hehh.


then she cut for like dam long.
because she also first time cut.
then she also dam scared.
then i keep stressing her.
lolol.


in the end........................
nothing to say.
at least my hair looks normal.
PHEW..
good enough for me.

okie larh my sis did not bad a job.
but.
THERE GOES MY HAIR.
ARGHH..
must wait for how long to let it grow long again.
arghh.

okie this is supposed to be tuesday's post.
went back to adefibel.
its a day care centre.
well its supposed to be a child care centre.
i was their pioneer batch.
then as my batch went to primary school.
they opened a day care centre for us.
so nice right.

i told edward and zibin 1030am meet.
well they are like my childhood friends or something man.
longtime bros.
guess what.
i was late as usual. zz.
but when i met them.
i cant help but keep smiling.
lolol.
then zibin say i crazy ah keep smiling for what.
guess i miss them quite a lot.
okie thats just gay. >_<

but it was great going back.
sigh it has been 6 years since i left that place.
grew up there since i was a little kid.

the layout of the furniture never changed all these years.
or maybe is they rearrange so many times.
went back to the original layout.heh.

talked to mrs lim and teacher salina
okie hope i spell correctly.
they are still teaching there after all these years.
they keep saying they old already.
but they still look the same leh!

talked about miss chua who left recently.
sigh.
quite sad. there was some sort of misunderstanding i guess.

even auntie still work there!
wah ate her lunch once again.
STILL TASTE THE SAME.
6 YEARS NO CHANGE.
SHIOKKNESS.
=X
really.
taste EXACTLY the same.
taste as good as ever man.

got one kiddo.
he dont want eat. say auntie cook shit.
i wanted to go to him.
and say "you telling me i ate shit for 6 years isit"
because i stayed there through out primary school life.
but in the end i never say anything.
he still primary 2. small boy. innocent and naive.
so i forgive him. heh.

i cant believe after i left for so long.
nothing much changed.
miss the place loads.
"hao huai nian!"


me and edward went to look at past year photos.
we found an album of pictures taken in 1997.
TEN YEARS AGO. LOL.
my gosh.
we looked like kiddos back then man.

i used to wear this super retro thick white spectacles that even i dont remember now.
we were like primary 2?
then my hair was dam cock lah.
no spikes no layer.
like use the outline of a bowl to cut.
add on the geek glasses.
WAH. nerdy geek first class.
zzz.
cant stand.
i should go burn those pictures to protect my reputation.

heh. no lah.
must keep so that next time can have a good laugh again.
got sentimental value leh.
dont play play.

but i got a question.
how come long long long long time ago.
i take photos.
pose hor.
i pose as monkey.
>_< oh my. u mean long long time ago when i am a kiddo.
i act as a monkey already???
my goshness.
darn weird.
so now i know when the monkey thing started. heh.

guess we really grown up.
we were laughing like mad over our old photos.
everyone look so kawaii can.
lolol.

WAHH...
miss those days.
the place never changed one bit.
thats why i miss it even more.
the principal office still hang my chinese painting which i drew when i was 9.
11 years ago.
my gosh seriously.
how time flies.

the teachers are still there.
they are still as motherly as ever.

teacher salina scold children dam funny.
she punish them stand on stools.
heh.

but i still dont understand what happen to miss chua.
sigh. so wasted. why must she resign.

hmm..
after that i went play ball.
heh.
dam fun as always.
shall not elaborate.
it deserves an entry on its own.
later too long bore you guys heh.

then.. was supposed to meet dicky cher noel for bbq.
stupid place of theirs no reception cant contact.
so i went home and have lazy noodles.
heh.
its instant noodles larh.
fit for the lazy man.

cook by yourself.
easy and satisfying.
somemore taste so good.
only downside is 2 packets not enough.
zz.
too lazy to cook again.
HEH.

hmm!
what a long entry.
okie people having prelims.
SHOO.
GO STUDY.
heh not like you guys will listen.
but jiayou bah.
ALL THE BEST!

people.
i am fine.
honestly.


heh.
yupp.
thanks for caring though.(:


guess this is just me.
the carefree me.


i am born to sleep on the clouds.
and feel the breeze blowing across my face.


just lazing around.
smiling and laughing all day.


life is bitter short.
and everyone dies one day.


life goes on.
the future is uncertain.


but at least i know.
i will be smiling on my deathbed.


wah. poetic talent.
LOL.


hmm. since i am so bored.
i guess i should go and continue writing songs again.

then again.
i am kind of enjoying my time.
chillaxing all day.
(chill + relax = chillax LOL.)

snatched this song from wilson.
heh.
人质 by 杨宗纬.

hmm.
yupp.

在我心上用力的开一枪
让一切归零在这声巨响
如果爱是说什么都不能放
我不挣扎反正我也没差


rain or shine.
keep smiling and laughing.
i think i have a hidden talent for it.
like prelims math paper.
i go in like that and kept my cool.
even though i didnt study complex numbers.
maclurins.
sequences.
i came out of the exam hall smiling too.
even though i have to admit i dont know how well i did.
or rather how bad.



hmm. its good to be happy all the time i guess.


i only have half the puzzle pieces.
i placed all the pieces i have together.
looking at the puzzle picture.
with all the holes because of the missing pieces.
i cant tell whats the full picture.

but based from what i can see.
i guess its a sad picture.


what now.
i kind of dont know what i should do.
someone show me the light.

but after all this.
i still cant tell how i feel.


have i masked my emotions for so long.
that i myself cant tell how i truly feel.
or is it the real me that is smiling all the time regardless of the situation.


cant find the answer for now.
guess i shall keep smiling until i do.
lolol.

this is what happens when you are too bored. >_<

went back to rv yesterday.
sigh.
miss the school loads.
but i am dam glad i am out of those white shorts after 4 years.
lolol.

saw my past teachers.
so happy they still remember me!
BUT I DIDNT SEE MAMA CHOY.
ARGHH......

sigh.
HAPPY TEACHERS DAY TO ALL MY TEACHERS.
teachers who taught me before.
or teachers who just talked to me before.
thank you all for making my school life so special.
(:



hmm.
i think i got split personality leh.
let me introduce to you my the other side.
his name is tinghao.
erm shit thats a stupid name.
how about...
hmm..
will be back after i thought of a nice name.