bah!
yesterday was the smile a mile run.
charity run lah.
organised by winni jasmine they all.

woke up at 7am.
dam early lar.
sunday i normally wake up at 1pm to eat lunch. >_<
then reach esplanadae.
then run.
its suppose to be 10km run.
but hmm.
in the end was run/walk.
then more of the walk.
but cause noel n cher their shoes are got problem. -.-
they got blisters. =/

we ran 4km.
then freaking hell dunno who say hungry.
then want go eat breakfast. zz.
so i followed.
went great world to eat. -.-
dudiao. wah lao feel dam bad.
we are supposed to do run for charity. -.-
somemore organised by my friends i dam paiseh la.


then i tell them die die must reach wheelock lah.
which is the turning point.
then basket i think we are the last of our shift. -.-

after we reach wheelock.
we wanted to take shortcut back.
so can reach back finishing point faster.
then. dunno walk till where lah.
river valley road. -.-
then alot of condos.
then tamade. -.-
walk and walk and walk.
then sometimes got run abit la heh.
but i also dunno where we went.
dont even look like town. -.-

then we walk till ue square i think.
dont know if i remembered the name correctly.
then the sky dark dark. then got cab come.

FATE.
then we chiong the cab liao. =X
heh i never tell people about the we take cab part.
then we alight at fuletan hotel. think i spell wrong.
wah then RAIN. drizzle.

then can see the durian.
but the singapore river blocking us. -.-
then we chiong ah....
then rain getting bigger and bigger.



FINALLLY.
END POINT!

zzz.

then jasmine say we cheat.
cheat is got cheat lah.
but we finish the whole race leh.
i think we run/walk more than 10km liao lor. =X
okie lah i know i in the wrong.
but wah lao 15 more days to prelims leh.
i still think i dam nice. XP
but quite fun lar.
except the lost in somewhere part not fun.

then this morning.
my legs aching. >_<
especially my knee.
sian.
its not muscle ache.
its the joint.
it has been like that since my basketball seasons.
but first time ache so much.

you guys got see the advertisement about the trishaw uncle with knee problems?
then he carry this fat lady on his trishaw.
yarh.
that kind of joint problem i think.
zzz.

exert too much during my seasons.
but its all worth it even though its a disappointing season.
sigh.
will train harder after my A levels.
for now.
hmm.

14 days.
all the way.

yesterday went to nj chinese orchestra concert.
17 more days to prelims and i go all the way to victoria concert hall.
just to support ruijie.
-.-
in the end he perform for 2 items only.
somemore is first 2 items.
i should have just paid 2 dollars instead of the 10 lah.
wait i have not paid rj the money! ZZ.

there was a item where they tried to play a jay chou tune.
wah got me all excited for nothing.
super disappointed.
not very nice ah.
=X

to me the music pieces sound almost the same larh.
they always start slow....
then there will be a climax.
then a loud ending.
seriously.

i heard alot of songs and music played with chinese instruments before.
some were awesome.
ironically the japanese can play the chinese instruments very well.
hmm.

well the best piece was the encore.
not bad not bad.

i am more amazed about where the speakers are hidden in the concert hall.
i looked around again and again but i seriously cant find the speakers.
because when there are speakers there will be 2 sources of sound.
the instrument itself and the speakers.
but i didnt hear any echo.
so its quite amazing.
or maybe its because sound travel at 330m/s and the hall is quite small.
so the time delay between the instrument and the speakers is neligible.
okie i am talking to myself.

oh yarh. its very cold these few days ah!
rain rain rain. ZZZZ. sooooo cooollldddd...

oh yarh i dreamt a weird dream last night.
super weird. dam.
i dreamt myself telling 2 friends of mine about my dad.
about how much he sacrificed for the family.
i forgot what i said.
all i remember was i started crying in the dream.
and that i was dam sad in the dream.


then i suddenly woke up in the middle of the night.
i blinked.
then i realise..
i am really crying.
oh my la.
who the heck cries when he is sleeping.
i totally freaked out.
somemore its not like it is fathers day or something.
the dream dam random.

the last time i cried was last year.
because of mrc. okie shall not elaborate.
BUT. what the heck?!
i actually cried when i was sleeping.
-.-

okie this is not supposed to be an emo entry.
nor am i trying to attract attention.
-.-
i just want to type it here.
so that just in case something stupid happens to me.
there is something that i leave behind that shows that i appreciate whatever my dad has done.
there are times i feel like thanking my dad.
but i scared its too sudden and he later think too much.
later he think i going to commit suicide. >_<
thank you dad.

yupp. this part of the entry is dedicated for my dad.
so other people just ignore.
i am not freaking trying to attract attention.
i have plenty of it already. XP

but then again.
if something ever happens to me.
some kind soul please show this entry to my dad.
but please remember to translate.
my dad dont really understand the english language.

on the other hand.
lets all hope i grow up safely and one day i will finally have the courage to thank my dad personally.
yupp.



16 more days

bah.
i watched a nba video.
and got all excited.
now i cant really study. -.-

anyway.
dunno why today the school infested with freaking cockroaches.
got one freaking climb up my leg when i sitting down.
then cause i put my elbow on my knee.
so i felt something itchy on my elbow.
i looked down.

FREAKING HELL.
I FREAKING JUMPED AND SCREAMED.
okie not girly scream.
but like WHAT THE *CENSORED*.
okie larh maybe i didnt cursed.
i shouted STUPID SHIT.

then my classmates they all start jumping.
then tamade got 1 class of j1s near by.
then they stared at us.
zzz. there goes my image as a "cool senior".
heh.

but freaking hell.
then i went to the hub.
like a air con room near the canteen.
then can hear girls screaming outside.
HEH HEHH.
dam funny.

oh yar.
the smiley person!
who are you.
seriously!
i appreciate you visiting my blog!
but i very scared is some teacher.
okie not that i dont like. but.
just kind of weird.
i dont mind teachers coming here but give me a warning first can.
so that i dont get into trouble about what i blog. -.-

or if you are someone on my msn list and dont want to announce here go talk to me lar.
like quite scary.
hmm. i dont know.
i just want to know who are you lar!
dam weird.
=X
zzz.
this is a sign.
that i should go back to my notes.
tata!




post. turn. bounce. turn. step. jump. hang. shoot.

p.s. oh yar. thats the last time i going to write anything in white font.
-.- idiot. i rarely do that then the moment i do that.
alot people go highlight.
basket. boliao ah. =X
tamade. tell you dont highlight already. HEH
kidding lar.

oh my. i rarely check my mail.
i got like thousands of unread mails.
thanks to flixster, friendster, and blah blah blah.
but once in a blue moon i go and check if anybody send me something.
and that once in a blue moon is really once.

i just checked because i am bored.
then i saw a mail.
from sherman. the mrc vp before me.
i was like. oh gosh.
but i would like to say a big thank you.
honestly and sincerely.
thanks.

you have no obligations to send me anything.
but you did.
looks like your passion and commitment for the cca is still there.
but seriously. thanks alot man.

let the heartbeat keep beating.

on the other note. i took study leave today!
and NOPE its not because of something funny.
i swear.

its really because...
ITS 21 MORE DAYS TO PRELIMS.
time to turn on the turbo.

just watched a nba video.
just enough to remind me what i live for.
i was kind of distracted for a while.
but now.
bring on the game.

TIME-OUT OVER.
back to the notes!

hmm.
okie i wanted to blog about something.
but i scared later everyone see like feel dam weird.
to her i am just another guy
so...
nevermind!
i feeling sleepy whenever i hit the books.
damm.
econs notes are soooo thick. zz.
okie this is stupid i am sure some nosey friends of mine will see this.zzz.
sigh. better go back to my notes.
prelims is near! press on guys!
but dont worry. even if you guys see this. its not suppose to be a sad entry anw. hmm.

well yesterday was my last day as spiderman.
happy or sad.
thats the end.


this are my 2 badges.
i got one from my teachers and one from the leadership camp.
most ccas got 1.
and i got 2.
hmm.
notice how one of the badges looks more "gold"
my friend told me everyone's badge is dull colour.
only student council's badge is gold colour.
i realised mine is gold too.
i think the dull colour one is from the leadership camp.
cheapskate.

mrs loh said yesterday that mrc is like the heartbeat of the school.
the heartbeat shows that the heart is pumping.
pumping the blood around the body.
keeping the body going.
when i heard that.
i really felt something.
i mean i can really relate to that statement.
guess now.
i am no longer part of that heartbeat.

but honestly.
i got the naive stupid feeling.
the feeling that
"if i got the chance i will do everything again"

i mean.
i truly believe i can do better.
alot of choices were made.
and i dont like some of them that i made.

i shall not condemn my efforts.
but i just believe i can do better.

but what is done is done.
it really has been a great honour serving.
serving the crew and the school.

there are small regrets here and there.
and they all accumulate to one big regret.


i will never forget the time.
when the visualiser just died out.
when the dance music just suddenly stop playing.
when the morning assembly presentation just dont play.
when the radio just went out of battery.
when the project just overheat.
when the ohp just dont turn on.
when the mic is not turned on.
when the laptop hanged.
when the fuse blew.

all the normal screw ups.
but all at the wrong time.
when it matters the most.
its not a problem to solve the problem

the feeling of being so powerless.
to be unable to
actually prevent such stupid accidents from happening.

just feel that i could have served better.
just felt that more can be done.
i used to complain that we dont get recognition.
but do we really deserve it.
because mrc is a service cca.
serving the school is our job.
why do we need people to thank us when we are just doing what we are supposed to do?
instead.
i should be the one thanking the school
thanking my crew for putting up with my nonsense.
thanking my teachers for always being so understanding.
thanking the school for forgiving us when we messed up. big time.

and i apologise to all whom i have failed.
as a vice president.
as a mrc member.
as a student.
as a friend.

most importantly.
i need to apologise to my seniors.
for the legacy they left behind.
that i promised to uphold.
for the reputation of mrc that i tried to live up to.
i have so terribly failed.

honestly i feel that i have done quite alot for the cca.
but i just cant explain this feeling of regret.
maybe its just that.
i have not done enough.

its a dawn of a new era.
i am officially a normal citizen!

okie i am too tired to talk about it.
update you guys tomorrow.
nights!

wah i am dam pissed.
i actually forgot ndric's birthday.
goddammit.
what kind of friend am i.
and i cant find him online.
shhessh.

dam pissed about myself.
i cant seem to remember people's birthday.
AHHH.
some friend.=/

to make things worse.
my freaking beloved phone is dying on me.
what PERFECT timing.
someone up there hates me.
arghhh.

wah just balled!
cant believe that.
i thought i will never ball until at least after my prelims.
i have not balled since the second last week of holidays!

well i was in school attending revision lecture.
then shihui messaged me ask me if want to ball later at 730pm.
i was like.
HUH so sudden.
but it was like 6pm so i thought just went down loh.
since they play so near my house.


wah.
rusty liao.
dribbling went from bad to worse.
passing also not very good liao.
because too long never play hard to estimate my strength.
but heng heng my post moves still there abit.
okie shit thats so singlish.

now my legs are aching.
my eyes are closing soon.
my body is drained.
too long never play.
but i am reminded how much
I LOVE THIS GAME.

it feels great bouncing the ball.
touching the rim. XP
it even feels great just sitting on the court watching other people play.

saw my juniors training that day when i was at the rooftop studying.
how i wish to play ball everyday again.
to train back.
but i really wish to take a glimpse of college basketballl myself.
even though they play at a whole new level.
i believe nuture is as important as nature.
in that competitive environment i will find my way.

dam tired now,
but now i know.
why am i studying so hard for.

for the game that i love.

i dont know why i am like.
suddenly dam tired.
as in sleepy.
zzz.

suddenly my shoulders aching.
like lie on the bed can sleep immediately that kind.
-.-

okie this feeling is not tired.
rephrase.

dont know why suddenly i keep having the temptation to sleep.
24/7

weird. =/


OH YAR.
i just cut my hair.
not bad larh.
muahahahahahh.
but i go cut hair forgot to bring money. >_<
then need to call my sis to bring money.
till now she still pissed.
say i waste her time.
wah lao.
i elder leh.
zz.

hahah.
i went to coffee bean and study on sunday.
OH GOSH YOU GUYS GOT TO TRY.
the DOUBLE CHOCOLATE CHIP MUFFIN.
and when they ask you if you want them to warm it for you.
remember to say YES.


looks freakkkkingggg good righttt.
hahah.
maybe because of the pro-skilled photography skills of yours truly.
look at the glowing fork!

it cost $2.60.
so expensive man!
but seriously.
its value for money.

i didnt want to eat at first.
but renkiat bought one.
i can honestly seriously smell it from the other table.
so i was soooo tempted to buy.
and i bought!

the first thing i did was to smell it.
OH MY..
it smell...
heavenly.
den i start eating.
it was so cold in the coffee bean.
but the muffin was so warm!
can seriously feel the warmth.
and the richness.
DOUBLE CHOCOLATE CHIP.
DOUBLE.
as i felt the chocolate melt in my mouth.
my heart just melted too man.
I LOVE CHOCOLATES.

okie.
before i bore you guys with my love for food.
heres another picture!



i swear i was going to eat the paper too.

wah my hair is like dam long now.
look like wild grass =.=

i should go and cut soon.
but PEOPLE.
never go monsoon or sandstorm.
especially if you are a girl.
huiping had a helmet style haircut.

either the hairdresser not good.
or she requested for it.
LOL.

yup.
for now i shall rely on gatsby.
got to go.
going coffee bean to study.

oh ya.
the cuz person on my tag is some idiot lah.
just ignore.
bleah.

kk. laters.

impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men
who find it easier to live in the world
they haven been give than to explore the power
they have to change it.

impossible is not a fact.
it's an opinion.
impossible is not a declaration.
it's a dare.
impossible is potential.
impossible is temporary.
impossible is nothing.

-mohd. ali.

my form teacher. initials mrt.
typed this in CAP BOLD on pieces of paper.
and gave it to the class.

sharing it with u all.
to tell you guys.
never ever think about giving up.
you can disappoint anyone in this world.
but never disappoint yourself.


i have a goal.
a dream now.
a little boy's dream.
a naive dream.

but i am more motivated than ever to study.
i want to go overseas to study.
but no way i doing that without a scholarship.
since my parents cant afford it.
i want to go the united states to study.

i want to play college basketball.
at least see for myself how is it like.
i want to play college ball.

and to do that.
i need to study hard and get a scholarship.
of course i need a scholarship to a good university.
better than NUS.
to continue my quest for knowledge in biology.

for now.
the short term goal.
is to play college basketball.
to do that i must mug.

so mug i shall.
having a goal makes mugging less painful.
its all for a bigger cause.
it gives your actions a purpose.

so i urge u guys to find a goal in life for you to work towards.
and not walk blindly in a tunnel not knowing where is the light at the end.



everyone try your best and leave no regrets.

great men achieved great things because they dared to dream.
do you?


-not impossible, just not yet possible.
--LETS GO PLAY SOME COLLEGE BALL.


p.s. HAPPY BIRTHDAY YEOWLIN!! HEH HEH

oh man. when is the last time i had chocolates.
zzz.

i typing this entry with only my right index finger now.
cause i am holding a banana with my left hand.
look at the url of this blog. hahah.
OH CRAP. a part of it is rotten! grrrr....

zzz.
shall not have another one.
this banana is dam big already.
had enough sugar rushes in one day.
hahah.
wah finally finished the banana.

erhh...
wheres the rotten part.
..... >_< !!!!
EH.
crap.
i just ate the whole banana including the rotten part.
zzz.

okie this is getting dam embarrassing.
and retarded.
ZZZ. CLOSE THIS WINDOW NOW.



anyway if u didnt close this window.
the crowd has spoken.
time to catch the hottest movie of the year.
transformers.
only in theatres.

anyway. this entry was supposed to be about something else.
nevermind.
another time.

gone to file my gp file.
tata.

before you read further.
let me tell you the time now.
3:46am
crazy shit.
i didnt stay up late to play or chat nor slack.
i stayed till freaking 3:46am to do math.
oh god.

was doing normal distribution tutorial.
and i just finished.
FINALLY.

this is what happens when u have an empty set of notes.
=/

oh crap i think i will just faint on my bed.
gd night.
or rather good morning.

dam tired. zz.


p.s. i just realised i typed it as 346pm.
zz. was too tired ystd